f(x) = 1/x where x=God

My, my, my...
It's been a while, old friend.
I *almost* forgot that I had this blog site in additon to my Xanga.

I'm not too sure why I haven't felt like writing much in recent weeks. Yes, that does mean that my Xanga has been somewhat semi-active. For some reason, I don't seem to have the energy to put to (virtual) ink and paper my daily thoughts. It's funny, in a way. I live every day with various thoughts and make little mental "post-it" notes that a certain observation or circumstance or happening would make for an extremely clever and witty blog post. Maybe it's a sign of my ADHD getting a little more severe because I end up forgetting about the entry.

I guess one thing that has been consuming my thoughts as of late has been the concept of love. A couple days ago, a friend asked me if I thought that it was possible for a human to love another human in the true "agape" sense. I forgot how I answered her question. See what I mean? My ADHD or whatever the heck is going on with my brain is getting increasingly severe.

(10 Minutes Later)

See what I mean? I suddenly got the urge to go get an iced coffee from Starbucks. So I just up and left and got back.
This is bad. This does not bode well for my future seminary career. Oh well.

Anyway, what was I talking about? Oh, right... Love.
So, is Agape love possible from a Human?
I think this depends on how "binary" you see this concept. Funny thing is, whether you see something as "binary" or not is actually "binary." You either agree or you don't that you agree or you don't that Agape love is possible from a human.

As it stands now, I don't believe humans are capable of agape love. Now to those cynics out there who are about to nod in agreement, a caveat. The reason I do not believe humans are capable of agape love is because of the imperfect nature of humans. I believe that the only being in this universe who is capable of such a perfect love is God. Now, this does not mean that humans can't come close. I do believe that there are people out there who are capable of loving someone 80%...90%... 99.9% of how they should be loved.
It's like the concept of an asymptote in math. We, as humans, are able to approach X where X=God. However, we will never reach X because of the mere fact that we are not God.

I think those people who are able to approach loving someone 80-99.9% of how they should be loved are the ones who are able to celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary. Now, to be fair, I know a lot of married couples who end up not being able to celebrate that particular milestone simply because his or her spouse has passed on before that milestone arrived... but you get the point.

I often find myself wondering if my concept of love is over-idealized. But then I realize that the mere fact that this concept is in my heart testifies to the fact that there is a certain expectation that is inherent in my being. I read something compelling in Korean a couple days back. I forget exactly what it says (attributed to my horrible memory, once again), but the premise was that even though people say there is no such thing as true love these days, the mere fact that they have an expectation that isn't being met attests to the fact that it does exist.

Think about all those love songs, romantic movies, and all other secular notions of love.
Now, think about the old adage "there is some truth in fiction."

You see, even the most cynical person who has become hardened and jaded about love has become so because he or she had some expectation which went unfulfilled. That there is some expectation that went unfulfilled shows that the notion or the concept exists.

Okay, I've run out of steam for now. Let's see what you all think.